as always~ reflections in the mind given over to spirit

Yesterday we went to Explora, where science rules… everything you do is geared to express scientific principles for one to learn through experience. Kinda like how life is a series of learning opportunities that reflect directly, the contents of the mind that perceives them and seemingly experiences them. We are constantly given the chance to review our minds via the world around us and distinguish if we are happy with what we see, and if not, choose to see it differently, in other words change our mind. It is the science of forgiveness and I for one have never been bored a minute, nor without subjects for review. It is exhilarating to let go of judgment and let the space where hate or irritation parked, be filled with love or at least possibility. I have a situation with my boys; we’ll call it my current science project… Here’s the thing, I see them hurting each other. They hang out constantly with each other, in fact they seem to feel incomplete at times playing without the other. So they seek each other out and then at some point companionship has turned to and audience-ship, ya know what I mean? They forget they wanted to have fun together and start feeling slighted by the other’s self interest and apparent lack of interest in them…. Attack follows…. Now, I’m seeing that this is the same old-same old, the only game the ego knows and what I’m investigating is why I feel there is a ‘me’ in all this. Ok, on the ‘me’ level, I don’t like the way I feel. I judge that they would be happier if they didn’t hurt each other. And that sounds reasonable as far as that thought system goes. Then, next stair; that I would be happier if I didn’t make that judgment and actually that thought that ‘there is someone and that someone is vulnerable to being hurt by someone else. Who is this ‘I’ that I’m referring to and who is the ‘someone’? We are all one are we not? So its so obviously a place in my mind vulnerable to ego reign, due to the decision for preference and special relationships. I prefer harmony. And I want my children to be happy. These are values that I have made more important that the truth, more important than seeing with the Spirit what Love would have me see. So, I obviously believe in disharmony (try as I'd like to to deny it). And only a person could be hurt, so there’s the belief that the body and various persons are who we are... so, there's that belief too... Ah… I would have said that wasn’t still active… yet, there it is plain as day. The persistent chance to see the error of my thinking shown me by the innocence of my children humbles me in gratitude. I ‘m willing to have any and all unloving perception healed…